On the topic of doing what you love

I’ve been exploring the job market recently for senior positions available in the community space. I love my job, however, it doesn’t hurt to keep an eye out for exciting opportunities. There are quite a few in the community space available which is super exciting. Not just for me but for the industry as a whole and those who choose to specialize in community work as a profession.

I’ve had the pleasure to have a few conversations with brands I personally admire, some I’ve grown up with. A couple of times those conversations have turned into fulfilling years of my life working alongside them. I absolutely appreciate the years of professional development it’s taken to get the point I could have those conversations and opportunities.

There is one insight that changed the entire trajectory of my career, opening the door to those opportunities.

Whatever it is you love, or is special to you, make it a core to who you are, fully embrace it. If it’s something you can incorporate into your profession, focus on it and build strengths around it.

Me

Hey, I get it. I remember the days of receiving this advice and thinking how UNHELPFUL it was because how tf do I know what I want to do? It’s okay, when someone shares this tidbit with you we’re not asking you to plan out the next 10 years of your career. Knowing you make awesome drinks all of your friends feel special when you have a party and you love discovering new mixology recipes, it’s a part of your identity! Embracing your inner mixologist can provide you with the framework for development areas opportunities you can take to hone your skills. Or if it’s not something you want to make a profession out of then it can just be a great party favor you bust out every now and then.

Welcome back, Monday!

I took a break from #Blaugust over the weekend from Friday – Sunday. After flying out to SoCal to visit a potential new work opportunity I just needed the downtime to recoup energy and motivation. Also, seeing it’s also “Get to know you” week what better way to kick off my return to blogging with responses to Naithan’s ‘Real Neat Blog Award‘ nomination!

What hobbies or interests do you have that you might not regularly include on your blog? 

I put many of my hobbies on pause for the last 2 years while I’ve focused on pursuing my career and education. However, I am an avid collector of Asian Ball Jointed Dolls (primarily Fairyland). I also an avid con-goer, traveling for nerd conventions across the country.

Are you learning any skills at the moment? If not, what would you like to learn?

Right now I am working on a business degree online at Community College of Denver! I am also honing skills in content strategy with a laser focus on consumers and SEO. Soon, I’ll also be working on a Salesforce certification. I think my plate is quite full on that front for the remainder of the year.

If you were invited on a one-way trip to Mars to establish a new colony, would you go?

Absolutely! I am a huge fan of space and space colonization. While I am sure it would be a very difficult endeavor the impact it would have on our ability relieve the Earth of our burden would be an opportunity I couldn’t pass up.

What is the one thing that you most want readers to come away from your blog with? A feeling, thought, or understanding.

This is a tough one because, for the most part, my blog is pretty personal. I think if there were something I would readers to come away with is that this is a safe place to talk about what’s important to them and know that they’re not alone. I know what struggling with adversity and mental illness is like. I work everyday to overcome anxiety and depression while creating the best work I can. You can do it, I believe in you and I’m here for you if you need to talk.

What excites you most about having a blog?

The ability to develop my writing and to have a place where, when I am ready, I can share my opinion on the things that are important to me. I don’t write about alot of the things I feel strongly about because the simple emotional energy it takes to create those pieces is better invested in work that matters. I would like to learn though this blog that my opinion DOES matter and I can write it without it taking up precious energy simply by becoming more comfortable with expressing myself through this medium.

If you could make one thing from a book, TV show or movie real, and in your possession, what would it be?

The watch Cooper gives to Murphy before he leaves on the mission to go through the wormhole in Interstellar.

They say everyone has at least one book in them β€” if you were to write a book, what would it be about?

I have the first paragraph for a book I’m really interested in writing saved in my google docs for like 6 years. It would be about a robotics engineer on a space station that ends up in an interstellar escapade to save the universe.

Tired AF

This was just as good as it looks. πŸ’–

Did you really think I was going to break the streak I’m on with #Blaugust ? Heck no! This one will be extremely brief though. I’m finally back home in Denver after flying to SoCal for a on-site with a brand I admire for a very cool role. The area was gorgeous and the campus is stunning. Tons of amenities and benefits for the people who work on site. We shall see what happens!

The lovely Naithan over at Time To Loot tagged me and a few others in on the Real Neat Blog Award. I’ll be writing my submission of 7 answers in tomorrow’s blog. See you soon!

If you like to listen to podcasts, this ones for you.

New podcast alert! I like to listen to either the interstellar soundtrack or this awesome podcast β€˜Tracks to relax’. There’s a new podcast I’ve been listening to while winding down before sleep β€˜Meditative story’. It mixes a personal story narrated by the author and every few minutes the host will have a mindfulness related prompt for you to consider as you absorb the story. It’s very calming and nice to fall asleep to.

I’ll add links once I’m back home from my overnight trip to San Diego!

On not belonging

San Diego Zoo

Events happen in our childhood – these events, along with genetics, can shape who we might become as adults. There is always latitude for us to develop in different ways, those events or experiences don’t define us. Some of the experiences I had growing up left deep scars on my psyche. The sum of which leave me occasionally (about once a month) feeling a deep sense of discomfort with who I am. This feeling is very difficult to explain, the best I can do to describe is much like impostor syndrome. That feeling that you just don’t belong to/in the circumstances around you. Maybe disassociation?

Even with the knowledge and confidence in the moment that this is MY life – not allowing this feeling (in the moment, when it happens) to have ownership or give it any legitimacy – still it takes some time, usually hours, to work through reaffirmations that I am who I am. I am proud of who I am. I’ve worked hard to become the person I am with the responsibilities I have. When I have this feeling come on I share it with Ian. He’s very understanding and helpful when I’m processing through the emotions.

This mood tends to happen around major events or decisions in my life. For example, before we flew out to start our vacation in Hawaii earlier this year. Tomorrow I depart to Southern California for a final round of interviews. It’s an opportunity I am very excited to learn more about and am honored to be a candidate for. If I were selected it would mean major upheaval, not in a chaotic negative manner, in that we would need to relocate and leave the beautiful home we just built. We are not adverse to this in fact we’re excited about the potential. With this turbulence though it leaves the smallest crack for those scars to get through – and that’s all it needs.

It will be okay, tomorrow will come and I will have the opportunity to shine. Scars don’t define you.

Blaugust & Community

I’ve really been enjoying the Blaugust event so far, not because of my own writing, but because of how great this community has proven itself to be. Even this early on its been a pleasure to be involved. Reading blogs, posting comment replies, and while it’s not something I’ve done just yet the event has had people exchanging blog posts on the topic of raid mechanics.

As a blogging newbie this round these past few days of activity have opened my eyes to the community aspect of blogging. It’s especially nice to see all the different types of gamers represented in the event. I even saw a blogger who is involved in second life, I’ve always felt so alone in my interest in SL. I’ve had a avatar for the past ten years, logging in to update her outfit and decorate the house I keep.

I’m hoping I’ll find the thread that will tie this all together for me. Find out what my niche will be. It all still feels very up in the air right now but I am holding confidence that I’ll find a rhythm to fall into at some point this month. In the meantime here’s the latest list of participants, click a random link and discover someone new (to you!).

Equilibrium

I can feel my equilibrium returning just in time for the work week. I cooked twice today! We woke up super late so I made breakfast for lunch, eggs and hash browns. Then this evening I made cheese enchiladas with chili gravy, one of the all time favorites recipes I’ve discovered on the NYTimes Cooking section.

Ian surprised me by making pinto beans in the instant pot as a side. This was a surprise because he actually sort of scared of the instant pot (the whole pressure, can explode thing) and avoids it all cost. However, I was busy frying the tortillas and he stepped up to get the beans sorted so that timing wise we wouldn’t have to wait on them. Since we didn’t have any bacon or ham hock on hand, he pulled out the remaining pork butt he had smoked and we threw that in the beans. It came out pretty dang good! GJ, Ian!

This week will be very interesting, I’m flying out Wednesday afternoon for a final with a brand I’ve grown up with. It’s a very exciting opportunity and I plan on spending the first half of the week prepping for meetings on Thursday with them.

I did a few gearing dungeons on the Paladin today, including a Mechagnon run! I happened to be in the right place at the right time in guild chat. That run would have been impossible with a pug at my ilvl. Unfortunately I didn’t move the needle much on the ilvl, we’re just up to 403, but maybe I will get lucky on rolls and have something titanforge.

I almost didn’t

Excuse the mess. I waffled quite a bit on posting a blog today. Mostly because I’m still feeling pretty low. One of the things I like to do when I’m feeling down is pull up a Nick Cage movie and get cozy on the couch.

I played WoW for most of the day – worked on gearing my paladin with low keys and knocked out both wings of LFR. I also managed to get in the first 4 bosses of heroic on my warlock in a Pug that kicked me 30 seconds before killing lady ashvane because the raid leader raged I moved to a coral even though I was 100% DPS’ing the boss the entire time.

Thank god I have enough distance from the game at this point so that type of shit, while incredibly annoying in its petty-ness, doesn’t effect my mood or enjoyment of the game. I sent the RL a quick thanks, rolled more AP (πŸ™„) and left the instance.

That left the paladin at 401 and my warlock at 418 for the day. I’ll probably look for more gearing keys tomorrow on the Paladin. I’m really disappointed at how weak Destro feels in 8.2. I know I took several months off but I’m barely pulling 20k in a raid. It’s bizarre seeing aff and destro at the bottom of the charts.

Hope you all are having a great weekend.

A bit low

Today was sort of an awful day. I worked from home so that I could have privacy for a meeting. We woke up as normal, let the dogs out, and uncovered the birds cages.

I was upstairs in my room answering emails when I noticed Leeloo was agitated. Magnus was under my chair and I noticed his head was moving in an odd manner and he looked generally unsteady. I pushed my chair back and he fell over on his side. I carried him downstairs to Ian and we sat with him through what I am pretty sure was a stroke. We’ve scheduled a vet appointment and he recovered almost fully after about an hour. I would estimate the worst of the episode lasted about 20 minutes.

There were some other personal things that cropped up and everything happening at once today made my mood pretty low.

Then, this evening, I came out onto the porch for some air to some of the most beautiful light and color from the sun setting over the Rockies. Sometimes we need a reminder we’re part of a glorious bigger picture.